Sunday, 27 April 2014

is this love or much more than that..

I have never been one of those girls who plan their lives around a guy. Not that I have not been in love, just that I never felt like doing that. One of the most noticeable and often irritating habits of mine is that I do things because I want to do those things and not because I should. My focus has always and always been to look for things that I like doing, find my calling in life and my often overrated, heading nowhere so-called career.

With you around, even before i could notice, all that took a back seat. To put it in your terms, I lost focus. Yes, indeed! Believe me, I never intended or planned it to be like this, it just happened even before I could take control of it.

The feeling of getting carried away by emotions has always intrigued me. So when you asked me why do I like you, I thought of so many things about you but could not really say anything. But then I thought to myself - there has to be something about him that makes me have a great day at college even after spending the entire night thinking about him, something that makes walking through the metro station as if I am flowing, miss my station because i was too busy relating the songs being played on my phone to my life.. I cant define this love for him in terms of his physical appearance, his intellectual ability, his weird sense of humor, his cute little jokes for me... Its just the feeling of him being around, makes me feel complete.. Its like there is nothing other than his presence that I would want from this world..

This feeling, this very feeling is like the early morning breeze.. Listening to your voice is like morning sunshine in the month of December.  I feel closer to you on days you are not around, thinking about things you do and everything that you say.  I have no clue what this is, but the joy of meeting you is out of this world..

There is so much that I want to tell you and so much more that I want to do for you but this world just wont let me because I am supposed act sane, do things that an educated civilized girl is expected to and of course, as you said think and act practically.

Thanks a bunch for interrupting my cake walk and opening my eyes to this dark, unfair world. Thanks for reminding me that I have a bigger purpose in life, though it will take me a while before I connect the dots and find an order and a meaning to this random sequence of events.

Saturday, 5 April 2014

happy birthday krishi :)

When I sat down to write about you, I could not do much but just think. It feels good to use adjectives to define certain attributes of people but in your case, I just went blank..

I started with flipping the pages of our precious collection of photo albums. It was an amazing recollection of the memories, of all the things that you do for us and of the happiness that you bring into our lives. Looking back at those moments was an experience that cannot be put into words. And, this made me realize that there is no word that can epitomize the love that you have for us. You define the word MOM. Happy birthday mommy :)

You are our superhero!! Love you Krishi :)